Why is that

the first thing i wake up in the moning i think of is you. Everything i do, everything i see reminds me of you. Why do i feel this way ?

Pathetic

yeahh, thats how i feel right now. Liking you, wanting to talk to you. Building the guts to talk to you and KNOW that it will die out in the next 5 mins. Seeing your text today, put the biggest smile on my facee. Seeing your smily face was the highlight of my whole sucky thanksgiving weekend. Youre the on that i think about all day in class, to the point where i cant even concentrate on something as simple as watering a plant.

So i just had a flashback ;
that gives me alittle hope, but i KNOW that i have no chance with you.

DEPRESSION KILLS

And ima about to be dead....

No titlee

So i guess im done. Done trying to make things happen, and end up the one getting hurt. I guess im done trying to start the conversations so that we dont forget about eachother. I guess im done trying to make things happen with you, when i know that the conversations gonna die out. I guess im done doing things that i dont wanna do just to make you happy so that our friendship wont fall apart. You have new friends now, choosing another guy over your "best" friend. You have "better" friends that you would prefer to hang out over us. Well you have so many other girls on you that you dont care, or even think about me as much as i do about you. You dont even care about anyone other then yourself and make you happy. All i need now, so someone that i can lean on when i'm losing it. Someone that actually cares and understands, what i do and why i have to do it. Someone who can cheer me up when i'm at rock bottom. I just need someone who really cares.

November 26, 2009

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODYY.
Its thanksgiving and its just me and my mom at home. Shes about to leave soon, so its just gonna be me. Funn righttt ?

FAG ?! nahh, FAK (: !

iatenaiyana (8:37:54 PM): i think hes insane
iatenaiyana (8:37:56 PM): HA.
iatenaiyana (8:37:59 PM): he better come around
iatenaiyana (8:38:12 PM): or ill go to THE FAKE SVHS and find him
iatenaiyana (8:38:13 PM): HAHAH
asdmimijkl (8:38:20 PM): HAHAH ! lmaoo !
asdmimijkl (8:38:33 PM): hmphhhh ! i'm so INTERESTED in him
iatenaiyana (8:38:33 PM): ohkay well SV was first
asdmimijkl (8:38:35 PM): LIKE SO MUCHH
iatenaiyana (8:38:37 PM): HAHAH.
iatenaiyana (8:38:38 PM): I CAN TELL
asdmimijkl (8:38:45 PM): LMAOO X]
iatenaiyana (8:38:48 PM): i think we've changed the subject a couple times
iatenaiyana (8:38:51 PM): but you bring him back
iatenaiyana (8:38:53 PM): THATS A SIGN
iatenaiyana (8:38:54 PM): (8
asdmimijkl (8:38:58 PM): HAHAH ! X]
asdmimijkl (8:39:06 PM): ohkay lets change it
asdmimijkl (8:39:09 PM): FOR GOOD
asdmimijkl (8:39:11 PM): hahah !
iatenaiyana (8:39:11 PM): FAK
asdmimijkl (8:39:15 PM): so how was your dayy ?
iatenaiyana (8:39:15 PM): sorry i changed it back
iatenaiyana (8:39:17 PM): HAHAHA
iatenaiyana (8:39:23 PM): oh my day was FAK
iatenaiyana (8:39:25 PM): FAK FAK FAK FAK
asdmimijkl (8:39:33 PM): HAHAHHA ! EFF YOUUU
asdmimijkl (8:39:34 PM): x]
iatenaiyana (8:39:35 PM): all you see is FAK everywhere dont you?!
iatenaiyana (8:39:40 PM): HAHA I LOVE YOU THOUGH
asdmimijkl (8:39:46 PM): lmaoo x]
iatenaiyana (8:39:53 PM): not as much as i love fak tho
iatenaiyana (8:39:54 PM): HAHAHA

30 seconds later

iatenaiyana (8:40:31 PM): make a name for him
iatenaiyana (8:40:34 PM): a scret codename
iatenaiyana (8:40:35 PM): LIKE FAG
asdmimijkl (8:40:36 PM): oh godd, FCKING __________ !
asdmimijkl (8:40:39 PM): lmaoo !
asdmimijkl (8:40:41 PM): FINE ASS GUY
iatenaiyana (8:40:41 PM): FOR FRESH ASIAN GUY
iatenaiyana (8:40:43 PM): oh
asdmimijkl (8:40:44 PM): oh haha
iatenaiyana (8:40:46 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
asdmimijkl (8:41:05 PM): fak
asdmimijkl (8:41:06 PM): FAK
asdmimijkl (8:41:11 PM): FINE ASS _____ X]
iatenaiyana (8:41:11 PM): fins ass _____
asdmimijkl (8:41:13 PM): HAHAH !
iatenaiyana (8:41:13 PM): HAHAHHA
iatenaiyana (8:41:30 PM): thats a good one

OH goshh, i miss this girl

Wowwww -_-

I pathetically miss you. And i dont even mean shit to you. Its been 5 days, and im still counting.