I triedd

All my time and effort,

So after 6 yearss

this is how its all gonna go down huhh ?
After all that we've been through, after all the bumps in the road, this is how its gonna end. I never thought that you could be like this. After all the things that we've been through. This is how its all gonna go down. So i guess you've made your choice of where youre gonna be staying. I dont even know how to react to all of this. Its so suddent and out of no where. But hey, ill get over it. If you dont care, then neither will i. Untill we meet again.

Woww -.-

Youre really not worth my time anymore. All the cards that i bought for youu, all the time that i put into writing them. I wish i could take back. You never would put as much into this as i do. I care about this to much. Why do i try so hard ? It doesnt make sense to mee. Whaddever. Youre on your own now, im donee

IVE REALIZEDDDD

Those moments that i wait for, arent really worth it.
I give my all, all the time. But i only get back once in a while isnt enough fore me.
I guess that sounds selfish, but hey. youd do that too.
i dont caree ? I care about you way more then you care about mee. THATS A FACT

Its funny how

you say that no ones there for you.
but when they actually try to talk to you, you push them away.

Sometimesss

youre so retarded, you dont even think before you talk. When im down i need someone to comfort me. You really dont know how to do that. Ive been there for you so many times, its ridiculous.

No school todayy.

Awhh man, i wanted to go to school so badly today.
Haha that makes me sound like a nerd but whatever. I actually enjoy some parts of school. I look forward to pe. I love my girls in thereee (:
I feel so loved by everyone, i got 13 missed calls this morning when i woke up.
EHHH im so bored and sore at homeee.

Stoopid algebra teacher !

Woww, you say you dont give respect cus you dont get it ?
No, not close. You would get respect if you freaking knew how to teach. thanks to you i failed my algebra state test. -_-
You cant teach, you fucking spit everywhere, and you dont make sense. I could never learn anything from you.

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH

These bipolar days to remember.
Eff you. Im done trying, and i mean it.

(:

This little girl just made my night.
These are the things that make me say " Yeahh thats why i give my all, even if i only get parts of it back." Cus when i do get the parts back, they mean alot (: !

Her: I can't ! I'm scared shitless ! LITERALLY !
Me: NO SHIT, you just shitted. NOW GOOO.
*LOLING,
ROFLING
LMFAOING
Literally !

Its funny how

were so close, yet so far away.
We're so close in friendship, but then we NEVER come to eachother for help.

Are we really as close as we say we aree ?

ITS RAININGG !

Oh , i miss the smell of the rain.
Just to sit in the house, under a blanket, watching a movie, with a cup of hot chocolate in my hand. MHMMMM, these are the days to enjoyyy (: !

Ehh, school the next day (:

Interesting dayy (:

I must say. I think its so ironic, that i use to be like "in love" with you. And know youre here hitting on me. Oh well, well see ;D And and and lovely bones is so dumb, dont watch it. Dont ever waste your money on it. Luckily i didnt have too (: Its all good tho, was was entertained in theree (;

Goooood night blogspott ! (:

I can finally

say that im happy and content with where i am.
I dont like anyone (:
I can finally say that i dont like anyone without lieing to myself.

I hope you know

You just made my dayy like crap.
I thought you were gonna be there for me like i was for you. Guess not.

Sometimess

i feel good about myself, and you just make me feel like shit. And you say you have low selfesteem. Look how you make me feel.

You must be a dumbass,

You would choose him over me. Wth, how long have you known him? How long have you known me? He fucked you over, without even caring. He's ashamed of being with you. He doesnt want anyone to know about you guys. & your dumbass still holds on to him. Putting him over me. You know that he flirts with other girls while he was with you right ? You know that he was flirting with your CLOSEfriend while he was with you, right ? No , of course ou didnt. Cus youre too suck on the fact that he "loves" you. Wake up, and get out of it. He played you. He took what could be called the most valuble thing in your life right now. And you still didnt learn your lesson. Why am i the one sitting here caring about you so much, when you really dont give a sheitt about me.

I WISHHH

I had a family where count down the days untill they came. I want to have cousins that i could relate to and tell everything to. I wish i had family that werent fatasses, ones that wanted my mom to make things for them to eat not here, but to also bring home. I wish i had family that didnt talk crap about eachother and let jealously get in the way of loving eachother. I want family that i could spend hours with and not feel uncomfortable. Afterall, family is suppose to be there for eachother theyre at their worst right ? HAHAH ! not my family. My family is the one that judges eachother on where theyre at in life, or their family situations. I want family that can be my support system, ones that help my family out when we need help. I only have that from my moms sid, why cant the other ones look up to her and follow her examplee ?

Youre not the same anymoree,

Next time you need me, i wont be here like i use to.
Next time something happens, dont expect the to comfort you.
I give more then i receive and im done with it.
I realize that i come off as a bitch, but you gotta know. If i care about youu. I'd do anything for youu. But hey, doesnt look like you realize.

Evesdropppers

If youre not in the conversation, theres probably a reason. Dont stand 20 feet away and ask us "huh? what? what happend?" Yess i do agree that i do it at times. Who doesnt, but when its a habbit. You better get rid of it. Just because youre sitting at the same table as us, or youre a family member. You think you have the right to but in. Theres a reason why we didnt include you. Just think about it.

I just wishh

You know how much your lifes changed from last december till now ?
Its been a year and youve been so different, I miss my old brother. I just hope someday you realize whats happend to you. And why i dont treat you the same anymore, why i dont care if i havent seen you in weeks. Its not that i dont care, but i care to much to see you and get hurt again. Shes changed you, for the worst, the WAY worst. I miss you so much, like you have no idea. Its one thing that i wish for everyday, to have my brother back. I just wish one day you realize all this, all thats happend. And i hope that day wont be long from now, cus i really miss you, Sooo much.

Freaking

examss.
Im sick, i cant study. Greatt, watch me fail !

wth

I try talking to you, after 439875 days of not talking. thanks thanks. I feel better -_-

I

seriously dont have a lifee.
HELP ME GET ONEE, somethings gotta change in 2010.

I was on a roleee

Greatt im sick -_-
I havent been sick for the last threefour months.

EHHH, studying for examss .

oh myyy

i just realized that ive been really slacking off this quarter. I mean if i do a project, then i put all my time and effort on it. But if i dont do it then i dont do it at all. Rather then some people just doing all of it but making it look like shit. I needa stop being so ocd about everything and just everything done next quarter.

IM so fed up !

WTF, you guys are so freaking stupid !
You see me in the hallways and give me the dirtiest looks that a person can give. What have i ever done to you? Yeahh i might have screwed up, but is that your business? No. Its not. You have absolutely nothing to do with it, and everytime i see you i get the death stares. And you too. You have no right to give me looks or shit. You got MY sloopy seconds. Ohkay. So i dont know what the hell youre thinking about. Giving me dirty looks and shit. Get over yourselvess.

HMPHHH

Its like i dont even know who you are anymore. What happend to youu ? What happend to us?
Its like if i dont try to keep in touch , then we end up not talking at all. Im tired. Its not right if its just me thats trying. I want me and you to be like the old times. But hey why should i care anymore, you fucked me over so many times.

Sometimesssss

Its not all about who the person is, but its how they make you feel.

Awhh

My stat says that im fucking stressed out, and you go and IM me and ask whats wrong. Even thought we havent talked in FOREVER. (:

FML what a day thoo.
My fucking brothers dont know when to stfu. Like seriously? i dont see you for like 290329482309 days and you come home and expect me to treat you the same? she fucked you up, to the max. to the point where i dont know who the hell you are anymore. i get grossed out everytime i see your face. Dont expect everything to be the same, you made a choice to stay and live over there. Everyone tried talking you into staying here. Did youu?! NOOOO. of course not, fucking big boob bitch got you so brain washed. Fuck you if you think that you can yell at me. Ohkayy, you lost that right when you said that you "loved" that bitch. I would never EVER see you the same anymore. who was fucking there for you when everyone didnt have faith and believe in you? ALL MEE! Wow, i cant even stand looking at your face anymoree. things really have changed in the past year between me and you. you use to be the person who understood me and what i wanted as a teenager, cus afterall you were just onee. I honestly really hope that somehow you end up reading this.

HMPHHH

What happend to the old youu ?!
I miss it , not gonna lie.

-_-

What a freaking day !
School was hellah fun today. Not what i expected at all.
So now im on hold with the freaking Asus company to get my laptop fixed. What a fail ! It shoulda been done already but stupid guy gave me the wrong number so i ended up calling the number in Canada. WTF -_- &&&&&&& Im so stupid ! i freaking ordered the wrong shirt for health science so now i have to wait till they ship it to me, and then ship it back. What a freaking waste of time ! >:[ Im sleepy as hell, but i have so much homework. IM STILL ON HOLD !

-_________-

HAHA

Freaking ashley ! (:
I get off aim, and this is what she leaves me.

gnyelhsa (3:41:51 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] BABY COME BACK
gnyelhsa(3:41:59 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] YOU CAN BLAME IT
gnyelhsa(3:42:00 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ALL
gnyelhsa(3:42:01 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ON
gnyelhsa(3:42:00 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ME
gnyelhsa(3:42:07 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] jk, its your fault
gnyelhsa(3:42:08 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] just get off

EWWWW

School tomarrow ! FML

This yearr,

i hope its gonnna be a good one.

YOUREEE

way to cutee ><
Are you for real tho ?

-______-

Wow, its a freaking new year. Give me a break. I dont need you constantly making a comment about every single thing that I'm doing. Im old enough to know right from wrong. STFU and let me do what i wanna do. Im not stupid, nor am i a kid anymore. I know whats right for me. Just let me do what i wanna do.

2010

Hmm first blog of 2010 (:
2010 DO ME GOOOOOD ! (: