;D

Those butterflies are back ! ;]
Lets see where they lead me to nowwwwwww.

Awhs (:

Yesterday was the best day in yearss ! (:
School was goood. came home took a nap and then ate dinner.
Then on the phone for the REST of the night with NATASHAAA (:
Yawp fell asleep right after ;]
Hmmm such a good day (:

Natshaaaaa !

I can be your world ;) !
Fuck the other guys, they're nothing but bull shit.

FEBRUARY 24, 2010

Just wanted to post a blog saying ...
HAPPPY BIRTHDAYY NATSHAAA ZAPALAAA ;]
I hope your day was a good day, i know i made you sad. But I promise to never do it again x]
But other then that, i made your day ;]

Myspace IM's with this chick

Me: "if im a bitch id ont like you
but if i carea bout you
i will do ANYTHINGGG for you
DONT EVER FORGET THAT
Natasha: lmfao even fight a big black girl if there trying to kill your friend!?
Me.: YESSSSSSSSSS
ID LOSEE
BUT ID TRY X]
HAHAA
Natasha: LMFAO
LMFAO
that made me laugh !"

Heheee

Little miss birthday girl ;]
See the sexy little white polish girl up theree ? ^^^
Yawpp, thats my best frann (:

OH YESSS !

& that's what it's all about ;]

Zapala's Spot

Zapala's Spot: "Yess, thats what it really is. I really hope you stay at southwest, i dont know what i would do in PE without you. Who’s gonna laugh at me when i do little girly things. Who’s gonna cheer you up when you have a bad day. The only reason why i love B days is because im with you. I love how we have 3 classes in a row together. I love how Mr. Walter makes fun of you, and says that youre hanging out with the right person. I think god gave me the wrong body for the wrong personality (: Cus we all know that im a white girl insidee ;] You make my freshman year U N F O R G E T T A B L E. I love you Zapalaaa ! ;p
Posted by Mimi at 7:56 PM 0 comments
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Does the picture look at all familiar?
Well if it doesn’t Mimi, it’s on my wall forever. Told you , you mean alot to me ! Wait isn’t unforgettable spelled with two t’s or are you spelling it correcly? ANYWAYS , I’m glad i’ve met you. Your my bestfriend feel special? Yaa should ;D Jkiddding. Anyways, I love you and your asian self especially since I get all the drama that’s happening with the ” asian families” ! The picture explains alot my words really don’t.
Your here forever & always <3 !
bestfriend Mimi Xu ."
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AWHHHHHHHHH ><
Its the picture of my noteee ! (: That just put the biggest smile on my faceee ;D Youre gonna have another pictre to take when you see my card ! >:]
Hehee, im known for my long ass cards. BUHTTTTTT before i forget. HAPPPPPPPY early BIRTHDAYYYYY NATASHAA ZAPALAAAAA ! (:
Dont be surprise if i attack you tomarrow (: And give you a super BIGGGG HUMUNGOO HUGGG ! Heheee

I love youu, best friend ♥

It feels nice

To know that you have people that appreciate you, and all that you do. It feels nice to know that people actually listen to what you have to say. I feels nice to have a best friend again. I feel so happy ! (: Im seriously on top of the world right now !

Zapala's Spot

Zapala's Spot: "Natashaa, you make me feel so speacial ! (:
You make me feel like i matter. Someone who makes me feel good about myself, and actually listens to what i have to say. I couldnt of asked for someone better to meet at southwest then you. & I hope you know that im always here for you no matter what. Even if you need someone to cry to on the phone at 4 in the morning, Ill be there to pick up and just stay on the phone with you. Even if were not talking, at least im there for you. So dont you ever forget that ! I love you Zapalaa ! No liee ;]
Posted by Mimi at 7:16 PM
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& that’s what a real friendship is.
Mimi your the one that makes me want to stay at SouthWest. Your the one that i’m always first to about my problems. Your the one i’m with on my B days. Your the one that has got me through this year. Your not even asian to me your white. (: Even though you have the lowest self-esteem yaaa know you gott it ! :D Your the one that’s making me plan on staying at SouthWest. I’ll be here for you, even if I make the racist jokes against you. Even though i’m keeeding. Now that you got me into this whole blogging, thing I feel like ME & YOU are the only ” White ” girls who blog ! But THANK YOU ;
thank you for everything you have done.
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Yess, thats what it really is.
I really hope you stay at southwest, i dont know what i would do in PE without you. Who's gonna laugh at me when i do little girly things. Who's gonna cheer you up when you have a bad day. The only reason why i love B days is because im with you. I love how we have 3 classes in a row together. I love how Mr. Walter makes fun of you, and says that youre hanging out with the right person. I think god gave me the wrong body for the wrong personality (: Cus we all know that im a white girl insidee ;] You make my freshman year U N F O R G E T A B L E. I love you Zapalaaa ! ;p

AWHHHHHH

Natashaa, you make me feel so speacial ! (:
You make me feel like i matter. Someone who makes me feel good about myself, and actually listens to what i have to say. I couldnt of asked for someone better to meet at southwest then you. & I hope you know that im always here for you no matter what. Even if you need someone to cry to on the phone at 4 in the morning, Ill be there to pick up and just stay on the phone with you. Even if were not talking, at least im there for you. So dont you ever forget that ! I love you Zapalaa ! No liee ;]

AWHHHHHS !

Would you try this hard ?

Asian languagess

Woww, really ? We live in america now. I speak english. Leave me alone and let me say waht i wanna say. Its not even disrespectful. Who says" What time is brother coming home?" Or " What time is my brother gonna come home?" Yeah, Its freaking, "when are you gonna come home" Thats how ima fucking say it. You means a lot and it makes a sentance right. So it sounds right, so i dont sound like a fucking FOB. So stfu if you dont know shit.

Ayeee, stalker

If youre reading my blogs and assuming shit, i recommend you not to. Cus i write blogs on the randomest things that happen to me, and if you dont know shit then dont say shit. Dont fucking run your month when you dont even know who i am, or what im about. So just hope that i dont find out who you are. Cuss bitch, youre going downn ;D

HMPHHHH

Its been so long since I've talked to you. I dont even know how long its been. Sometimes i wonder if you miss me. Why havent you made the effort to talk to me ? You make it seem like nothings wrong between us, but you know deep down that there is. I really miss you. But im not gonna give in, cus ive done it all of the other times, its your turn now.

Why is it

that everytime i write a post about you i never go throught with posting it ? Why is it that youre the only one that people have to pretend to be happy for ? Why is it that you always get your way even if we know its not the right way ? Why is it that for a dirty little person like you, you get everything you want. I just wanna know why.

Petpeeve

Facial hair !
Ewhhhh, go shave it off (:

My hands are cold !

But im happy (:
Youre just way to cuteee !

MOVINGGG ?!

out of no where you tell me that youre thinking of moving to my aunts? When did this happen, cus i sure as hell didnt get the memo. You expect to leave everything that i have, everything that ive known for 6+ years go to wastee ? You expect me to be a good girl about it just go with you? Nahh, i dont think so. Yeahh i think it would benefit us, but no. I refusee, i refuse to go anywhere. Ive been in vegas most of my life, and im not going anywhere. Sorry, not gonna happen.

Mixed emotionsss

i dont know what i want.
I dont know if i want you. I dont know if im being shallow and not looking past this but then are you really into me ? Ewh why would you be ? &&& all i can say at this point is, i miss my best friend. I miss you. I really do miss you.

TODAYYYYYYY

Is the day that i have a new best frienddd (:

Hmmm

Are these butterflies comming back again ?

Nahhh, i hope not.

Happy Lover's Day ! (:

Happy Valentines Day guyss ! (:
Hope you guys sharee it with whom you lovee ;P
&&&&&
HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER CHENNNN ! (:
Sexay little thangg !

HAPPPPPPPPPPPY

day before chinese new years dayyy (:!
Sooooooooo, today was a pretty fail day. I didnt do ANYTHINGG -_-
Well other then make cupcakesss ;D
I think i lost it, its not like how it use to be -_-
Wudddever, i triedd (:
So if you guys dont like it tomarrow. im sorry.

WUDDDDDDDDUP

3 day weekend ;]
Hmm, no more depressing posts ! Well for now (: Untill the next time i needa get my thoughts out again. Hmmm so just got back from the buffet, I SAW LE THEREEEE ! (:
Hehe, i love that weirdooo. And then went to my aunts house to chill, got some MOOOOOLA (:
Not that much thoo, not as much as all of the other years. FAIL. Everyones going broke these days -_- Sooo, since we were there today. I dont think were gonna be there tomarrow, so i guess ima be doing homework the whole day tomarrow. Trying to finish up on everything and get ready for my sunday (:
I will be killed on monday. So if you dont hear from me the whole day, please make sure im not dead. KAYYYYYYS; Happy 3 day weekend guyss. OHHHHHHHHHHH, and happy valentines day (:

Natasha Zapalaaaaa !

I know youre going through some tough times right noww.
But i just want you to know that im right here for you if you need me. (:
Feel better kiddddo ;] Ill see you on tuesdayyy (:

I find it funny how

me and you are both online, you know that im fucking online. And yet you still dont make an effort, to just say hi. Shows how much you "care" and how much you'll "be there for me."
Looking back now, i feel so stoopid for coming to you. Asking you if it happend, when you were suppose to come to me. HAHA, thats not gonna happen anymore. I promisee.

So when you say

"You've lost many friends as this year goes by, but shit its not my lost" you probably ment me. Or somewhere in the lines of me. Well you know what, im happy to say that too. Ive lost one friend this year, ONE and i bet you can guess who that is. Its you. God knew how much you ment to me and when he made you leave my lifee, he gave me four new girls that make me feel like you've never made me feel beforee. So you know what, if its not your lost. Then it sure as hell isnt minee (:

You say

that i never share. You say that i never tell you anything anymore. You say that you try. Yeahh you try alright, when i tell you about what i feel or how i feel you totally ignore it. You know for damn sure that youre the one that im closest to. You could just show a little more caring then this.

AS;DLKFJ

So i guess everythings gonna go down hill from hereeeeeee.

Youre so fucking dumb

AGAIN, youre choosing someone over me. Youre full of bullshit when you say that "No one could replace you in my heart." REALLLY ?! DONT FUCKING LIE TO ME. I know for god damn sure that youre so goddamn brain washed by this stoopid asshole. Are you fucking stupid ?! After all the bullshit, after all of the people, after all this time you still dont fucking understand. You ahead, get your heartbroken, AGAIN -____- Bestfriends my ass.

So Ive thought about it

So much as happend between me and you. & everytime that something new happens, its always you the screw up and me that says sorry. Why do i always say it? Not because its my fault, but i want what happend to just vanish and get back to where we were before. But you know what, I've really been thinking about his. Why do i always have to be the one saying sorry. Why am i always the one saying the words its ohkay, i forgive you or don't worry about it. Why am i always the bigger one, and stepping up and forgiving you? You know what i think im done doing that. Yess, you are my best friend. But im not willing to be the only that tries to make this friendship work, if you really cared about this. You would meet me half way. Its like you dont even care anymoree. A friend recently just reminded me about some of the things that happend in the past. Like i didnt even remember them anymore. Cus i oviously tried to not let it get between anything. When she was talking to me about it, i was trying to keep a smile on my face and just shake it off. But you didnt know how much it hurt to hear it all over again. Too think that you listened to some other person over me. For you to take someone elses side over your own best friends? After all that we've been through, you still listened to her, and her bullshit that she talked about me. Not only did you not defend for me, but you listened to her. You listened to her and started other crap too. Reallly?! Is that what best friends really do to eachother? For all that youve done to me in the past i still forgave youu ? hmmm, i think thats pretty dumb of me. Its been 2 weeks since we havent talked and im still counting the days. Im not calling it quits, but im pretty damn close too. I have no idea why im still holding on. Holding on to someone who hurt me so much in the past, someone who doesnt even give a shit if she loses me or not. Why am i always the one waiting around. Why am i always the one trying ? Why am i always the one being the bigger person? Well you know what, not this time, not anymore. Its gonna be your turn. You can put these pieces back together, cus im done trying. Im done finding the pieces, im done trying to make it work. Its your turn. You can put back the puzzle now. Just because we call eachother besss doesnt really mean anything to me anymoree. Show me that you really want me as a bess. Dont just tell me, show me. After all, actions speak louder than words right?

Tell my why

its been a week and i havent even talked to you.
You dont even know if anythings wrongg.
Tell me why
I dont even wanna see your facee anymore.