Is it just me?

Or is it when I'm mad at someone, i want that person to try and get me to not be mad at them anymore. Like, if i were to be mad at you and not talk to you. I would want you to try and talk to me and make things better.I understand that you have the impression that I might not want to talk to you, and that might be true. But I'd want to know that you cared enough to try and work things out. I mean, if it was my bad then by all means. I'm gonna make sure that i do my part. But if its not my bad, then I'm not gonna put any effort in. Don't avoid me and just let things fix themselves. Because, believe me. They won't.

But then again, that might just be me.

I hate it when,

I talk to people and they're being so dumb. Like i'd say something, and they're like "oh is it asian?" BITCH, just because I'm asian doesn't mean that everything i do is asian. If you knew me at all, you'd know that i strongly dislike asian things. So dont even fucking stereotype me into that category. " Do asians celebrate christmas?" Like wtf?! Get outta here! So before you bring out the whole asian thing, just know that I'm nothing like your "typical" asian. I dislike boba, i HATE HATE HATE sushi, i dont hangout with all asians, and i most def dont act like your "typical" asian. So gtfo, and stfu -.-

Bestfriends?

Naaah, bitch i dont think so. Yeah, alright you can say im over reacting. Say whatever you want, but thats just not cool. When i tell you something, i want you to know about whats going on in my life. I expect you to keep in with you until the day you die. But obviously, you dont give a fuck. You call me best friend, and you dont even know how to act like one. When a best friend tells the other best friend something, that best friend should know that her best friend doesnt want anyone else to know. Thats why she told only her best friend. But obviously her best friend is an idiot and cant keep shit to herself and calls her self a best friend. Yeaaaah, thats great. Ive been through so much shit with you, im soooo done with it. Its always you that fucks up, YOU that fucks up my stuff. and ME that has to put it all together again. Yeaaah, no. Im done with that. Best friend? I dont think so. Go ahead, Go be a hoe. & hope that he comes back, fucks you, and leaves you again. Cus honey, he doesnt give two shits about you. So when he fucks you over, and leaves you hangin. Pleaseee dont come to me and start rambling on and on about what happend, cus im so tired of it. Tired of telling you the same things over and over again. Tired of being the one that puts in double the effort. Tired of being over looked. Im just tired. If you care, then fucking prove it.

Theres a part of mee

that wishes you would leave me something for when I log in. But every time I do, that wish never comes true. Kinda foolish isn't it?

Late night phone calls,

with you reminds me of what happened, what could of happened, and what would of happened only if you stayed. Boo Tampa.

You lied

again
& this time, I'm gone for good.

Yeah, alright.

You're bullshit.

I'm Rude?

Oh excuse me for wanting to carry out a conversation with someone without being interrupted. That's one of my biggest pet peeves. When I'm talking to someone, please don't interrupt me. Didn't your mom ever teach you something called MANNERS? Maybe you should use them. When I'm carrying out a conversation with someone, and you wanna say something to me. Please wait till I'm done with talking to that person. Because if you don't, I WILL yell in your face. & When that happens, don't you DARE say that I'm mean or rude. Cus lets rewind and see who was rude first.

Same with butting into a conversation that I'm carrying. If I'm talking. Let me talk. When I stop, then you can go. You'd think its common sense. But hey, common sense isn't so common these days.

PetPeeeeve

When im doing anything, Esp. Homework.
Dont rush me. I get mad irritaed. And expect to get an attitude.

Lateee

Night phone calls with best is the best ! (:
MimilovesNATASHAZAPALAverymuch <3

Wow really ?

Just because i go to school and have a good education doesnt mean im gonna know everything in the world. School doesnt teach you how to fucking control the 2 button watering schdule for your garden so fuck off. I know things that other people dont, and they know things i dont. Like damn -.-

Natashaa

So i was webcamming her and showing her my new nails.
And i ask her what shes doing and shes like nothing. Later on she tells me to check her tumblr, and she wrote this...

Dear Mimi ;
I haven’t showed how much, I’m actually gonna miss you. Your vietnamese ass showed me everything I could possible know until this day. I miss everything about school, cause of youu ! When you wrote that long ass letter I think I should have showed how much I appreciated it but I didn’t but this is my way for you :l I remember mentorship day ONE, you talked to me :D ! Who ever knew we would have came this far. I know you think that different schools will seperate us, but imma visit you everyyyday ’ !

OH AND I WILL BE THERE TO SEE YOUR FAKE NAILS !

You gave me a friendship that was straight up, and positive. I vented everyday on how I felt, and YOU outtta all people got what I was saying. I’m probably not gonna see you over summer but that’s alriiight . I just want you to know thattttt… i’m here 24/7 . A diall away, or even a text awayy …

I MISSS & lovee you mimi ! & NO ONE WILL replace you .

Kayyy love your bestfriend- Natasha :D


Hmph, i love you natashaa <3
You have no ideaa. meeting you this year has taught me so much. I know that going to spring valley is gonna make you happy, so im happy for you ♥

Laura's so cutee !

So i get 5 missed calls from laura, and she talks to me like nothings wrong. I'm like alright this is kinda weird x] Then i hear the door bell ring, im like wtf? So then i go down, and my dads like its some girl with a cake. Im like OMG >.< LAURAAA (:
She freaking shows up with a plate full of cupcakess <3 (:
Hehee, i love this bitch so much ♥
Ima miss you when i leaveeeeee ;[ Dont forget about meee. Upadate me on everything (:

Teeeheee (:

Laura:
(9:38:18 PM): Sooo
(9:38:22 PM): did you tell your boothang
(9:38:24 PM): that you got a kiss
(9:38:26 PM): FROM
(9:38:27 PM): NOT HIM!
(9:38:29 PM): ;)
Mimi:
(9:39:17 PM): HAHAHAHAAHAHAH ! X]
(9:39:17 PM): yeeeeeeeeee ! i was like BABEE ! GUESS WHAT
(9:39:25 PM): and hes like what, im like I CHEATED ON YOUU ! >:]
(9:39:28 PM): and hes like WAHT?!
Laura:
(9:39:29 PM): You should feel very special
Mimi:
(9:40:23 PM): Muahaaa, i secretly thank brianna for throwing it on my facee x]
(9:40:26 PM): CUS I GOT THAT KISSY >:]
(9:40:26 PM): next timee, ill get someone to throw something bigger
(9:43:07 PM): so i get a bigger kiss >:]
Laura:
(9:43:013 PM): Get someone to throw something on your lips
(9:43:013 PM): ;]


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

"You always want what you can't have"

Sooo trueee.

Pet peeve

Don't "whatever" me.
It annoys the shit outta me.

" Even though we stopped talking, I still want you to know that you're still on my mind."

... ♥

Yeauhh, I must admit

I do push people away. I do give them bullshit. But that's only because I wanna see who cares enough to push past my bullshit, and keep chasing me, when i dont deserve it. Cus if you've proven to me that care enough to keep chasing and keep pushing after I've pushed you away. You've proven to me that you deserve to be in my life. It's a phase, i get over it. But once i do, its smoooth sailing (:

Awhhh (:

Me and brother number two are just sitting here listening to music while doing our own thing. Hes playing poker while im writing my essays. I have music on in the backround and he's singing along to everysingle one of them. And if i didnt know the lyrics to the song, he would just mumble it making it seem like he did (: Who ever knew that my brother knew the lyrics to Mariah Carey x]
Hehee, awhh we havent been like this in a while. I miss this. Just like the old times. Waiting for people to get here, finishing up the last bits of the PE essays. School tomarrrow, fml. Lets hope i get home early tonight x]

Hmphh

Youre not even mine, so why should i be scared of losing you?

Ay Yo;

I kinda miss you.

Oh godd,

this weekend has to be the most irritaing weekend of 2010 -.-

Baby ...

Yous a hoeee. Like on the real.

Bored -.-

I hate having cramps, im home all day.
Sooooooooo bored D;

A - Available: Yah know it ;]
B - Best Friend: A got a feww <3
C - Crush: Hey look, there's an ANT ! X]
D - Dad’s Name: Ken
E - Easiest Person To Talk To: The mainss
F - Favorite Band: Ewh, bands ? -.-
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms: Wormss ! >:]
H - Hometown: Vietnammm <3
I - Instrument: noneee
J - Job: highschoolstudent (:
K - Kids: not anytime soooon
L - Longest Car Ride: vegas to spring creek
M - Milk Flavor: Plainn
N - Number Of Siblings: 2 brotherss
O - One Wish: ehh ;[
P - Phobias: BUGSSSSSS
Q - Favorite Quote: I have many
R - Reason To Smile: becuase its the best medicinee... nd im sick x]
S - Song You Last Heard: Tie me down
T - Time You Woke Up: 9
U - Unknown Fact About Me: Im pretty good with shakespere (:
V - Vegetable: Ionoo, i like most of them
W - Worst Habits: popping my gum
X - X-Rays You’ve Had: Mouthh
Y - Your Favorite Food: PHO (:
Z - Zodiac Sign: the fishhhhy (;

-.-

Theres just something about you that pulls be towards you.

"I'd rather be the one you cheat with, then the one you cheat on."

Truedat !

I think its cutee

When i say im gonna go to sleep early, and i end up staying up to talk to you. And you fall asleep before meee. Hehee, just a thought (:

OMG

Ima miss this bitch so much, WTH. Shes leaving me next year. I dont know where id be without her D;

asdmimijkl 7:54 pm
(7:54:38 PM): i think it is
(7:54:42 PM): hes at work, i cant talk to him
(7:54:46 PM): ants in arizona
(7:54:50 PM): HAS NO FUCKIGN SIGNAL
(7:54:54 PM): wth is this D;
Natasha Zapalaaa 7:55 pm
(7:55:49 PM): lol you have me :]
asdmimijkl 7:55 pm
(7:55:59 PM): hehee, shaw doo ;]
Natasha Zapalaaa 7:56 pm
(7:56:08 PM): lol :]
(7:56:11 PM): mimi i love you !
asdmimijkl 7:56 pm
(7:56:40 PM): i love you tooo ! ;]<3
Natasha Zapalaaa 7:56 pm
(7:56:56 PM): :]
(7:57:00 PM): im glad i met you this year
asdmimijkl 7:57 pm
(7:57:06 PM): hehee, awh ME TOO !
(7:57:15 PM): omg you ahve like no idea how glad i am that i met youu
(7:57:21 PM): i dont think id be who i am today
(7:57:26 PM): if i didnt meet you
Natasha Zapalaaa 7:59 pm
(7:59:02 PM): i know same here ! :]
(7:59:05 PM): i miss you

She makes me feel so love and special.
I just realized that we have not fought once this year. Well yeah once, because of Stuco Student Body elections. But that was stoopid, SO IT DOESNT COUNT ! X]♥

Hmphh

Wtf am i gonna do this weekend?
Vivians sick, so no birthday weekend with her D;
Babes out of town til monday
I guess ima just stay home and make posters all day -.-

Hmphh,

I can see things going down hill from heree D;

Omg,

this like made me LOL instantly.

Me: I wanna find a street that everyone goes by !
Brianna:CHINA TOWNNNNN !
Me: Noo, i want everyone to go there. Asians, Blacks, Whites, Mexicans, and everyone in between !
Brianna: Its not like blacks and mexicans would want to go to an asian restaurant anyways. They'd like get jumped by the asian mafia or something !

Irritated

Woww, i just spent 6 mofcking hours on making MY OWN poster.
And youre there sitting on your ass getting other people to design and do your shit for youu ?! WHERE THE ORIGINALITY AT ?! -.-

Hehee

Im excitedd.
Just got all the supplies i need for the campaignn. Making bows (:
Vote Mimi For VP ! (:

Hey guysss

Im running for Sophomore Class VP !
SOOOOOOOO, if go to soutwest and youre a freshman ...
VOTE MIMI FOR VP ! (:

motherfcker

Woww. Annooyed. Just leave me alonee. Going out with babe tonight to get my mind off of stuff.

April 28, 2010

You finally admit it.
Or at least said it. Lets see if youre for real.

February 27

To April 27.
Hmm, i just cant take you for real.

I never knew

How much you actually meant to mee.
I saw you walking home from school todayy. All alone. I jsut wanted to get out of the car and walk with you. Seeing your face, just reminds me of how "close" we use to be. Reminded me of the times that everyone knew who me and you were. Everyone knew that we were BESTfriends. Hmphh, youve changed so much. And i guess i have too. But at least i didnt let go of our friendship. Have youu ?

This bitch

Wowww, your ass would forget the flashdrive and not do your part for the project. Thanks for screwing us all -.-

Goooooodbye Vegas

HELLLLLLLLLLLLO ELKO (;
Oh my god, getting out of Vegas for a couple of days! So excited, even if its for school. Im still glad to be able to get away for awhilee. Although, ima miss you guys here thoo. Call me and update me on stuff ! (:

HAHA !

Im a tease ? (:
if you say soo.

Startingggg

April 22, 2010

Im cutting worthless things out of my lifee (:
Its about timee.

Thankss

Best frann -.-

-.-

Dont fucking sit there and say that i didnt do shit alright?
I fucking made so many phone calls for you today and you sit there and say that i havnet done shit the whole day. Nawhh it doesnt work like that. I got you a good ass deal for the internet, and you still fucking yell at me. I donnt know what you want, i dont know how to please you anymore.

04162010

Hmm, todays really turning into a good day. Tell me why, i constantly have 93475 IMs from people, but i only check to see if your name is in one of them. Everytime that little tab on flashes orange, i just want it to say your name.

She make me feel good about myself (:

Mimi Xu:
if i said that i wanted to hang tonight
would you ditch them and go with mee?
Natasha Zapalaaa:
ya i'd choose you
ya what the heck !
;p;
*lol

She dah bestereseterest <3

April 16, 2010

Ive never felt so loved beforee (:
Last night everyone was yelling at me, and making me go to school. Saying how Their day wouldnt be complete without me. I never knew that i felt so much to them. Natasha made me feel so good, when she yelled across the courtyard (: Shes so cuteee, but yeahh overall chill day. I love you all ♥

Tell me why i feel so loved (:

Natashas sitting here saying that she cant go through the day without me.
and Vivian >:]
Vivian:
FOR HOW LONG ?
Mimi:
thurs, fri, sat, sun
oh damn !
IMA BE LONELY THEN
FRI AND SAT
I MEAN
THURS AND FRI
Mimi:
Well not b days
cus i dont even see you anyyways
DUHH
just A days
Vivian:
but
you complete my a days ):
Mimi:
I PROMISE
YOU OWNT LEAVE MY MIND
YOULL BE RUNNING THROUGH IT ALL DAY
Vivian:
I better not bitch
Mimi:
SO WEAR TENNISHOESS

* No matter how much my bests make me feel loved, theres always apart of me that wonders why you havent tried showing me. Well, that is if you really did care.

Awhh she makes me smileee !

So i was thinking of not going to school tomarrow.
But this bitch wont leave me alonee (: Hmm, it feels good. I feel loved >:]

Natasha Zapala:
no
your coming
mimi
i will be depressed like you dont knwo :-[
i cant :-[
i will give you a massage
anything
please xuu ! :-[
omg mimi :-[
ima cry mimi
it wont be the same :-[
sdjhfdskj MIMI I NEED YOU



Natasha Zapala:
mimi <3 :]
i love your
asian white selff
dkjfskf !
your the best advice giver!
and you need to come to school tomorrow :]
so you can make me happy
♥♥♥♥♥♥

Mmmphhh

Im so tired of everyything thats going on, i just want a day from all the stress.
Ive been putting up a smile, for the past week. I wanna just stay home and not worry about anything anymore. Im so annoyed, and irritated. Pleaseee, i dont need this right now. I dont say anything anytime you wanna stay home from school, or leave early. So why are you making it so difficult for me? I just cant leave you when say it like that. But i really need this day.D;

03272010

Tell me what happen to us. Tell me where everything that ive had went.

I wish

we could just talk like we use to. I wish that were as crazy about eachother now as we once were before. I wish that we could talk all day without getting in a fight or getting mad at eachother. & if it we were to get mad, it would be in a playful way. I wish that i got those phone calls from you late at night, offfguard, telling me that i was on your mind all night. I wish that you just cared a little more then you do. I wish that you would try a little harder. I just wish that you dont take me for granted. I wish that we could just redo and rewind to that time. It was cute. Juss sayin.

Ms. Zapalaa

Keep your head up high and that smile on your face kiddo. Cus theres CERTAIN PEOPLE out there that would kill to see you frown. & as you say to me, Everythings gonna be ohkay (: Soo, just keep that in mind, and everything will be ohkayy.

Look Whos talking (:

Mimi: I feel speacial!
Laura: SPELL IT WRITE, HOE
Mimi: LOOK WHOS TALKING, HOE! WRITE IS RIGHT NIGGAH
Laura: LMFAO, FAIL!

I'm not asking for much...

I just want you to show me that you really care.
Is that really to much to ask for?

What the heck,

Youre the one thats suppose to be there to make me feel comfort, reassure me that everything is going to be ohkay. But no, youre the one thats actually adding more to my stress.You fucking guilt trip me everytime i dont talk to you. Excuse me, last time i checked. I have a life, and not all of it revolves around you. You know how much fucking school means to me, and still youre there making me feel bad for not talking to you. Yeahh it was nice talking to you til i fell asleep. Yeahh, it was nice talking on the phone til the sun comes up getting to know eachother. Yeahh, it was nice having those "moments." & Yeahh, it was nice doing somehting new, and taking a risk for you. But that was when i had time. Time is ticking on me, and i have things that i have to do. I really enjoyed all those times that we've had. But i just have things to do now. & i have things that i needah get done. I really hope you understand. & Heyy, if you really did care about me. Then summers just around the corner. Well have those times back (:

Mix Feelings

Mix Emotions.
I dont know how to feel, or what to think. You make my mind run in circles. Why are you making me feel like this. Please, just go away. I was fine without you before & Ima be fine now that you leave me alone.

(:

Im glad me and her are getting closer >:]

Icuplauraa:
i'm taking deep breaths
like i'm about to give birth
LOL

I had a choice,

wait no i still have that choice.
Why cant i seem to make the right one?
Every attempt i make you take you out of my mind, youre still there. I really need to learn how to walk away and just say NO. Why are you doing this to me.

Just thought I'd post a blog

for miss ELAINE WONGGGG ;]
Its her birthday today ! Lil' miss turning 15 !
I hope you had a good one, and a fun time on saturday ;D

i love youuuu ♥

D;

SO i randomly got this ...

Natasha: So i was just thinking about it , and we barely talk anymore i miss all the long conversations we use to have but i thinkk were fading :\ sdkfjsd I miss my mimi, the onee from before :\ well i stillll lovee your ass anywayss ! random i.m. butt i just wanted to lett you know ;p

& honestlyy, i really made me tear up. i dont know where to even begin with this girl. I met her in advisory this year. FRESHMAN YEAR. Its been about 9 months and were closer then EVER. I cant ever, in my dreams expect to be so close to someone like her. I dont even know when we started to be so close, and before i knew it. She was telling me everything. & soon enough i became her "backbone." & now everythings changing. We're drifting, and it just doesnt feel like how it was before anymore. No matter where any of this takes us, i really hope that you know that ill ALWAYS be here for you. Even when youre at spring valley, partying your ass with white people. Just know that this little asian will be right here. Answering ALL your phone calls. & when you need someone, ill ALWAYS be here. To give you advice, comfort you, and make you smile when youre balling on the phone. I dont even know how to say this. You've taught me so much this year,& its just amazing how close we are. I wanna re-do and re-wind. TO the time that me and you were inseparable. TO the time that we cant wait for Bdays, to talk about everyything that goes on. TO the times that everyone knew that Natasha hangs out with a little asian chick. & TO the time where we surprised everyone, when we told them that we were BESTfriends. I miss you, i promise. We'll get there again. ♥

*This was a little homo, but thats how close we fucking are.

March 30, 2010

So i guess im taken now ? 0.o
ROFLLL ! Chill ass day today. Had so much fun. Jasons so cute >.<♥

Things are falling together so perfectly (:
Spring Break, going goooooood ;]

Heheee (:

icuplauraa:
LOL hell yes
next time you see me i'll be indianified
i'll have that jewelry thing between my eyebrow
& i'll be chanting , AY YIE YIE YIE YIEEEEE

ROFLLLL ! ♥♥♥♥

Rofl

Youre fucking hilarious (:

Spring Break !

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when (and when) just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all

- I swear, All 4 One

Such an old song that has some good meaning (:

Elaine Wonggggg

This girl, never thought id be this close to her.
To the point where we talk everyday, and even to the point where i tell her everything.

asdmimijkl (9:55:02 PM): you guys make me feel better x]
xluvelainex (9:55:27 PM): thats what were hereee forr. we listen and comfort and help and whatever you needd
xluvelainex (9:55:37 PM): we sound like one of those special needs dogs o_O
asdmimijkl (9:56:00 PM): HAHAHAHAH !

._.

A fucking month ago, i was on top of the world. Everything was just perfect. Everything went my way, everything went smoothly. Everything was picture perfect.
POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOF !
A month later, im LOWER then rock botttom. Wtf is this ?! Shits falling apart in front of my eyes, and i cant even do anything about it. Wait, no. Rephrase that. Ive done everything i possibly could do about it. But no one even seems to notice it or care much for it. Youre fucking going Bipolar on me every day. Theres not one day that goes by without us fighting cus of you and your moodswings. & well hey, thanks best friend. You prove how much you fucking care about me. I fucking care about you, take my time out to talk to you. Try to fucking wake you up from your stoooopidness. & you repay me by this ?! Yeahh, bitch. Go find your other "best friends" cus this ones not gonna be here anymore. IF shes gonna get treated like this. Yeahh, not at all. I see people that i care about in the worst moods possible. I try to put a smile on my face, hoping it would spread to theirs. Im so sick of this. In a matter of a FUCKING MONTH, everythings wrong.

Fucking

Mood swings -.-

I dont fucking

put up with shit. I dont talk to people that give me an attitude, cus hey i can give it back to you 10000x worst. Why do i fucking put up with you? I really dont need you to make things worst. I was fine when you werent here, so i think ill be fine if you leave.

I never saw it that way.

ayosharlniggee (5:57:07 PM): not crilics ot however you spell it
asdmimijkl (5:57:36 PM): yeeee they are !
asdmimijkl (5:57:42 PM): i got them and when i got it off
asdmimijkl (5:57:46 PM): it hurt so bad
asdmimijkl (5:57:54 PM): i had to go to the salon for them to take it off
ayosharlniggee (5:58:03 PM): weak sos ' ! lmao
asdmimijkl (5:58:34 PM): HAHAHA !
asdmimijkl (5:58:38 PM): FUCK YOU XD
ayosharlniggee (5:58:44 PM): i love you though so its okay ! (:
asdmimijkl (5:59:13 PM): HEHE, im the girliest and weakest one out of all the people i hang out with x]
ayosharlniggee (6:00:14 PM): LOL, naw i dont think so
asdmimijkl (6:02:18 PM): you dont think soo ?
asdmimijkl (6:02:22 PM): ROFL i do xp
asdmimijkl (6:02:27 PM): EVERYONE tells me it
asdmimijkl (6:02:32 PM): i dont care tho (:
ayosharlniggee (6:02:43 PM): haha yeah your weak but you know how to handle a bitch without fighting lol

Hehee ♥

This made my day...

So i come home for the gas station and i get this ...

Natasha:
mimi!
iloveyou <3 !
kay
well i have a headache
just wanted to say hi ! :]
& I will see you tomorrow.
bye <3 !

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Only if you tried a little fucking harder.

Its so damn hard to keep a conversation with you. Its like you dont fucking care if we dont talk after 239874684 days. I ask you where you've been, you say busy. In one word, like its nothing. So youre saying that you're to busy for your best friend? Are you truely that busy, to the point where you cant just drop off a "hi." Why should i be the one sitting on this end wondering about how youre doing, what youve been up too, or just how things are going for you. While youre just sitting on the other end caring about some other things. If you really truely cared about me that much, you'd make time to talk to me. I understand that you have a busy schedule, i understand that you have more important things that you'd rather do. But if you REALLY DID CARE, you'd try just a little harder. I cant count the number of times where i try to talk to you. & you just answer me with one worded answers. Yeauhh, that shows me how much you miss me and wanna talk to me. Well, hey. Its not like i havent tried. So the next time you try crying and complaining about how we neglect you and ignore you at a hangout. Look at yourself before you start getting mad at us. We dont get mad at people for no fucking reason. I still love you. But honestly, why should i. When you dont even give a fuck about me. & if you get mad at me after reading this blog, think about it. Is all of these things that i say true though? Yeauhh, they are.

ROFLLLL !

So im sitting here talking on aim and just minding my own business.
And in the background, i hear my family talking about how big of a player my family is.

My uncle: I've been married 4 times.
My other uncle: Yeeee' but no ones better then my son. He has a new girl every weeek!
My dad: Yeahh, thats something to be proud of ! Watch him get STD's !
My uncle: Well at least he's gettin' somee !
My aunt: Why are you guys gonna arguee ?! No one beats your grandpa ! HE WAS MARRIED TO 3 WIVES THAT KNEW ABOUT EACHOTHER AT THE SAME TIME ! Now thats what i call game ! ;]
My WHOLE family: ROFLL ! LMAO ! LOL ! LMFAO !

Saturday ...

Woke up at like 7 this morning -.-
Then took BooBoo to the vet for his shot.
Then went to confessions, the preist nailed me while i was in there x]
Thennn, came home and went to the mall.
Total fail, this lady talked me into getting this nail stampy thingy.
Whuddever, i like it ;]

Ehh, fucking asshole dont talk to me anymore.

I miss

My BooBoo D;

Why

do we keep fighting like we're together.
I know its pretty clear in your eyes that you dont want us to be together, so whats the point ?

You know ...

Its really the littlest things that matter to me.
SO try a little fucking harder.

Biology

is a pain in my ass -.-
I just finished doing the whole notebook.Just gotta find out whats on some of the pages... waiting for brianna go get on aim -.-
Anywhooo, finished my letter to Mrs. Jones. And i gotta say, it sounds pretty good x]
Doesnt even sound like i wrote it ! xp

EFF

this shit, its all about school now.
Its your turn to chase, cus im fucking tired.

Yous a cuteee

asdmimijkl (12:52:21 PM): Lmafo, ohkays. Ill tippytoee (:
_______(12:53:37 PM): (; your too cute !
asdmimijkl (12:58:14 PM): Noo, no im not ! (:
_______(12:58:40 PM): Lol yes you are
asdmimijkl (12:59:59 PM): Well youre blind ;]
_______(1:00:59 PM): i have corrective lens tyvm (:
asdmimijkl (1:02:37 PM): Hahaa ! So you are blind without themmm ! >:]
_______(1:04:12 PM): Lmao shut up (;
asdmimijkl (1:04:48 PM): HEHEHE ! Suckkkkkah ;]
_______(1:10:07 PM): :P leave me alone

Brother number 2

Called and told me to go outside cus he bought me something.
I thought it was just food, but once i opened it up to see what was inside. IT WAS A PAIR OF SHOESS ! >:] What a big surprisee ! (: Todays been such a chill day !

HEHEEE !

Sitting on the computer and talking to you all day long makes my day (:

:DDDDDDDD

I got a call last night around 12:45.
Me: Hello ?
The person: Hey cutiee ! ;]
Me: X]]]], Heyyy !
The person: Guess what ?
Me: Hmm?
The person: I just called to say i miss you and you were on my mind all night.

SO FUCKING CUTE ♥

Ive never

realized how bad having asian parents til now.
Ive never realized how much having asian parents are gonna affect me with things til now.

WHYYY

is it that you choose today, RIGHT NOW to ask me to chill.
Why is it that you have to work tomarrow OUT OF ALL DAYS ?!
Why is it that you ask me to chill with you at 8 at night ? & when i cant, you get mad. Why cant my parents let me out and let me do what i wanna do. Im fucking old now, i know whats good from bad. WHY cant they just fucking trust me for oncee. Ive done nothing to lose their trust, and yet i still never have it. WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THIS ?!

Awhhhiee !

" Sometimes it was obvious,
we were brother and siser,
you could see it in your eyes,
our facial expressions,
the way we looked out for each other

And sometimes we might as well
have come from different planets.
(That was another way you could tell)
Over the years, there have been times
when we were sort of out of touch
or just too busy.

but there has always been
that strong bond between us
the one that keeps reminding us
of the things we have in common
and keeps us looking out for each other
in a dozen different ways."

Hmm, tell me why that hellah made me think of my brother and our memoriess -.-

:DDD

Today was an alright dayy.
Until night rolled around, it was amazingg ;]

Todayyyy

Was a good day (:
Potluck was funn. Saw people that i havent seen in FOREVERRRR.
&& Had that good bonding time with vivian ♥

HAHAHAA !

Made my day (: !

asdmimijkl (10:19:46 AM): ROFLL, youre cool
ayosharlniggee (10:20:03 AM): lol i am huh. Your pretty dope yourself (:

ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL !

If

I could walk into your life being happy , then why cant i walk out of it the same?

My bestfriend fails !

kennyishellabomb (8:24:29 PM): OH WTF D: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DDD < 33333333333333333
kennyishellabomb (8:24:36 PM): AHHH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
kennyishellabomb (8:24:37 PM): D:
kennyishellabomb (8:24:40 PM): IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW D:
kennyishellabomb (8:24:43 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
kennyishellabomb (8:24:45 PM): ILL MAKE IT UP
kennyishellabomb (8:24:47 PM): I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND
kennyishellabomb (8:24:48 PM): ;D

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Heheee !

asdmimijkl (6:54:27 PM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lLvtydTM78
asdmimijkl (6:54:28 PM): GO GO GO
ayosharlniggee (6:55:05 PM): okay okay okay
asdmimijkl (6:55:14 PM): HEHE, ME AND YOUU ;]
ayosharlniggee (6:55:20 PM): okay brb
asdmimijkl (6:55:21 PM): ROFLL
asdmimijkl (6:55:22 PM): kay
ayosharlniggee (6:55:50 PM): oh oh i heared this song before and your face popped in my mind lol
asdmimijkl (6:56:21 PM): AWHHHH >.<
asdmimijkl (6:56:24 PM): YOU DID TOOO !
asdmimijkl (6:56:27 PM): THATS SO WEIRD X]
ayosharlniggee (6:56:50 PM): LOL ferrealssss

(:

Im not gonna call you tonight.
Not that i dont wanna hear your voice and your giggle. But to see if you miss me enough to pick up the phone and call me ♥

Fuck you

Bitch, youre just not the samee.

So

You ask me what i want for my birthday.
I said i didnt want anything. But really , all i want is youu ♥

Woww -_-

You serious right now ?!
My money is my money. Dont fucking go through my wallet and ask me where all my money went. Im not fucking stoopid to leave all of my money in my wallet and lose it. I really dont like it when people go through my stuff, ESPEACIALLY my money -_-

OH GOSHHH

I have the biggest headachee D;
EPPPPPPPPPPPPPP !

Birthdays tomarrrrow ! :]
Im exciteddd !

Oh godd

Todays been a long day.
I wanted to distract myself from everything thats been going on so i did everything i possible could today.
- went to the gym with the brother, ran so many lapss ! -_-
- went to burlington, totally fail. I hate that placee
- went to the mall with mommy, finally got jeannns ! (:
- went to Qmode, got nothing
- went back to the gym with brother, i did abs ;p
- then got home took a shower
- daddy wanted to go to bestbuy to look for cameras
- got home then daddy decided he wanted ice cream
- went back out to get ice cream
&&&&&&&& Now blogging/myspaceing for a little, then gonna go get ready and go to a party.

* Happy Birthday Chirss ! ♥

-_-

Now that i actually think about it. There hasnt been one birthday of mine thats gone smoothly. I wonder when one of my birthdays actually go well. Without tears, yelling, disappointment, moodiness, or just plain out problemss -_-

Thanks guys ;

Thanks for answering my questions. Thanks for making me feel part of nothing -_-

I miss those days ;

As i was driving to the bank with my dad today, i pasted by this house. The whole family was outside gardening. They had 3 little boys running around trying to help their parents. Then that made me remember about the odl days at my old house. When the WHOLE family would be back in the back yard gardening. I would be so small to do anything other then hurt myself. Id try to help but then end up making a mess. I miss those days when the whole family would be doing things together and just have fun. I miss those days when me and my mom would wake up in the morning and watch my dad drive off to work. I miss those days when we didnt have to worry about anything. Now everyones squared away. Everyones doing their own thing. No ones making time for eachother anymore. and i have to admit, i dont even make as much time for my family anymore. I constantly find myself backing out on plans that me and my mom made 2 weeks ago just because me and a friend wanted to hang out. I cant even remember the last time my WHOLE family was together and there was no awkwardness. What happend to those days ? Who ever thought that i would miss those days. The days where id try helping my parents with gardening and having 934875 splinters in my fingers. Id kill to have those days back. Even if it ment going back in time and being 6 again. Just for a day.

Ehhh

I think i over reacted to everything today x]
SO i was lying in bed and my dad comes in and starts giving me a massage (:
Cus he knew i was sore from the workout i did today in fitness day. Awhhs, and then my mommy comes in and watches tv with us ;] That put me in such a better mood. Everything was just building up today and i just didnt know how to react to it all. I just need to stay away from people for a while. Or maybe just a day to myself. Im tired of trying so hard. Its pointless. Im sorry if i kinda went biopolar on youu ! x] Things are just building up, and i havent no one that i can get it all out on too .

TEEHEE

" I think it was faith that made me walk that way to see you. Cus i never do. Weird why i walked the other way. Im glad i did thoo, cus i got to see youu ! :] "

Awhhhhh xD

Stop

fucking talking to mee ! -_-
If i dont reply to your messages, texts, and calls. Get the fucking message that i dont wanna talk to youu.
Me: I woke up today in the best moood thanks to youu (:
You: Awhh youre welcomee.

* IM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU FUCKFACEEE ! -_-

March

Oh March is such a goood month this year ! (:
Its my birthday in 6 days guyss ! Better remember it ! ;D

Tell me why

Ive been in a good ass mood the past 3 days ?! (:
Oh wells, i like it. Its a new feeling, i hope it stays for long ! ;]

Another

one of my words, JOCKEDD

I feel

on top of the world ! (:
You make me smilee, BIGGGGG ♥

;D

Those butterflies are back ! ;]
Lets see where they lead me to nowwwwwww.

Awhs (:

Yesterday was the best day in yearss ! (:
School was goood. came home took a nap and then ate dinner.
Then on the phone for the REST of the night with NATASHAAA (:
Yawp fell asleep right after ;]
Hmmm such a good day (:

Natshaaaaa !

I can be your world ;) !
Fuck the other guys, they're nothing but bull shit.

FEBRUARY 24, 2010

Just wanted to post a blog saying ...
HAPPPY BIRTHDAYY NATSHAAA ZAPALAAA ;]
I hope your day was a good day, i know i made you sad. But I promise to never do it again x]
But other then that, i made your day ;]

Myspace IM's with this chick

Me: "if im a bitch id ont like you
but if i carea bout you
i will do ANYTHINGGG for you
DONT EVER FORGET THAT
Natasha: lmfao even fight a big black girl if there trying to kill your friend!?
Me.: YESSSSSSSSSS
ID LOSEE
BUT ID TRY X]
HAHAA
Natasha: LMFAO
LMFAO
that made me laugh !"

Heheee

Little miss birthday girl ;]
See the sexy little white polish girl up theree ? ^^^
Yawpp, thats my best frann (:

OH YESSS !

& that's what it's all about ;]

Zapala's Spot

Zapala's Spot: "Yess, thats what it really is. I really hope you stay at southwest, i dont know what i would do in PE without you. Who’s gonna laugh at me when i do little girly things. Who’s gonna cheer you up when you have a bad day. The only reason why i love B days is because im with you. I love how we have 3 classes in a row together. I love how Mr. Walter makes fun of you, and says that youre hanging out with the right person. I think god gave me the wrong body for the wrong personality (: Cus we all know that im a white girl insidee ;] You make my freshman year U N F O R G E T T A B L E. I love you Zapalaaa ! ;p
Posted by Mimi at 7:56 PM 0 comments
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Does the picture look at all familiar?
Well if it doesn’t Mimi, it’s on my wall forever. Told you , you mean alot to me ! Wait isn’t unforgettable spelled with two t’s or are you spelling it correcly? ANYWAYS , I’m glad i’ve met you. Your my bestfriend feel special? Yaa should ;D Jkiddding. Anyways, I love you and your asian self especially since I get all the drama that’s happening with the ” asian families” ! The picture explains alot my words really don’t.
Your here forever & always <3 !
bestfriend Mimi Xu ."
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AWHHHHHHHHH ><
Its the picture of my noteee ! (: That just put the biggest smile on my faceee ;D Youre gonna have another pictre to take when you see my card ! >:]
Hehee, im known for my long ass cards. BUHTTTTTT before i forget. HAPPPPPPPY early BIRTHDAYYYYY NATASHAA ZAPALAAAAA ! (:
Dont be surprise if i attack you tomarrow (: And give you a super BIGGGG HUMUNGOO HUGGG ! Heheee

I love youu, best friend ♥

It feels nice

To know that you have people that appreciate you, and all that you do. It feels nice to know that people actually listen to what you have to say. I feels nice to have a best friend again. I feel so happy ! (: Im seriously on top of the world right now !

Zapala's Spot

Zapala's Spot: "Natashaa, you make me feel so speacial ! (:
You make me feel like i matter. Someone who makes me feel good about myself, and actually listens to what i have to say. I couldnt of asked for someone better to meet at southwest then you. & I hope you know that im always here for you no matter what. Even if you need someone to cry to on the phone at 4 in the morning, Ill be there to pick up and just stay on the phone with you. Even if were not talking, at least im there for you. So dont you ever forget that ! I love you Zapalaa ! No liee ;]
Posted by Mimi at 7:16 PM
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& that’s what a real friendship is.
Mimi your the one that makes me want to stay at SouthWest. Your the one that i’m always first to about my problems. Your the one i’m with on my B days. Your the one that has got me through this year. Your not even asian to me your white. (: Even though you have the lowest self-esteem yaaa know you gott it ! :D Your the one that’s making me plan on staying at SouthWest. I’ll be here for you, even if I make the racist jokes against you. Even though i’m keeeding. Now that you got me into this whole blogging, thing I feel like ME & YOU are the only ” White ” girls who blog ! But THANK YOU ;
thank you for everything you have done.
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Yess, thats what it really is.
I really hope you stay at southwest, i dont know what i would do in PE without you. Who's gonna laugh at me when i do little girly things. Who's gonna cheer you up when you have a bad day. The only reason why i love B days is because im with you. I love how we have 3 classes in a row together. I love how Mr. Walter makes fun of you, and says that youre hanging out with the right person. I think god gave me the wrong body for the wrong personality (: Cus we all know that im a white girl insidee ;] You make my freshman year U N F O R G E T A B L E. I love you Zapalaaa ! ;p

AWHHHHHH

Natashaa, you make me feel so speacial ! (:
You make me feel like i matter. Someone who makes me feel good about myself, and actually listens to what i have to say. I couldnt of asked for someone better to meet at southwest then you. & I hope you know that im always here for you no matter what. Even if you need someone to cry to on the phone at 4 in the morning, Ill be there to pick up and just stay on the phone with you. Even if were not talking, at least im there for you. So dont you ever forget that ! I love you Zapalaa ! No liee ;]

AWHHHHHS !

Would you try this hard ?

Asian languagess

Woww, really ? We live in america now. I speak english. Leave me alone and let me say waht i wanna say. Its not even disrespectful. Who says" What time is brother coming home?" Or " What time is my brother gonna come home?" Yeah, Its freaking, "when are you gonna come home" Thats how ima fucking say it. You means a lot and it makes a sentance right. So it sounds right, so i dont sound like a fucking FOB. So stfu if you dont know shit.

Ayeee, stalker

If youre reading my blogs and assuming shit, i recommend you not to. Cus i write blogs on the randomest things that happen to me, and if you dont know shit then dont say shit. Dont fucking run your month when you dont even know who i am, or what im about. So just hope that i dont find out who you are. Cuss bitch, youre going downn ;D

HMPHHHH

Its been so long since I've talked to you. I dont even know how long its been. Sometimes i wonder if you miss me. Why havent you made the effort to talk to me ? You make it seem like nothings wrong between us, but you know deep down that there is. I really miss you. But im not gonna give in, cus ive done it all of the other times, its your turn now.

Why is it

that everytime i write a post about you i never go throught with posting it ? Why is it that youre the only one that people have to pretend to be happy for ? Why is it that you always get your way even if we know its not the right way ? Why is it that for a dirty little person like you, you get everything you want. I just wanna know why.

Petpeeve

Facial hair !
Ewhhhh, go shave it off (:

My hands are cold !

But im happy (:
Youre just way to cuteee !

MOVINGGG ?!

out of no where you tell me that youre thinking of moving to my aunts? When did this happen, cus i sure as hell didnt get the memo. You expect to leave everything that i have, everything that ive known for 6+ years go to wastee ? You expect me to be a good girl about it just go with you? Nahh, i dont think so. Yeahh i think it would benefit us, but no. I refusee, i refuse to go anywhere. Ive been in vegas most of my life, and im not going anywhere. Sorry, not gonna happen.

Mixed emotionsss

i dont know what i want.
I dont know if i want you. I dont know if im being shallow and not looking past this but then are you really into me ? Ewh why would you be ? &&& all i can say at this point is, i miss my best friend. I miss you. I really do miss you.

TODAYYYYYYY

Is the day that i have a new best frienddd (:

Hmmm

Are these butterflies comming back again ?

Nahhh, i hope not.

Happy Lover's Day ! (:

Happy Valentines Day guyss ! (:
Hope you guys sharee it with whom you lovee ;P
&&&&&
HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER CHENNNN ! (:
Sexay little thangg !

HAPPPPPPPPPPPY

day before chinese new years dayyy (:!
Sooooooooo, today was a pretty fail day. I didnt do ANYTHINGG -_-
Well other then make cupcakesss ;D
I think i lost it, its not like how it use to be -_-
Wudddever, i triedd (:
So if you guys dont like it tomarrow. im sorry.

WUDDDDDDDDUP

3 day weekend ;]
Hmm, no more depressing posts ! Well for now (: Untill the next time i needa get my thoughts out again. Hmmm so just got back from the buffet, I SAW LE THEREEEE ! (:
Hehe, i love that weirdooo. And then went to my aunts house to chill, got some MOOOOOLA (:
Not that much thoo, not as much as all of the other years. FAIL. Everyones going broke these days -_- Sooo, since we were there today. I dont think were gonna be there tomarrow, so i guess ima be doing homework the whole day tomarrow. Trying to finish up on everything and get ready for my sunday (:
I will be killed on monday. So if you dont hear from me the whole day, please make sure im not dead. KAYYYYYYS; Happy 3 day weekend guyss. OHHHHHHHHHHH, and happy valentines day (:

Natasha Zapalaaaaa !

I know youre going through some tough times right noww.
But i just want you to know that im right here for you if you need me. (:
Feel better kiddddo ;] Ill see you on tuesdayyy (:

I find it funny how

me and you are both online, you know that im fucking online. And yet you still dont make an effort, to just say hi. Shows how much you "care" and how much you'll "be there for me."
Looking back now, i feel so stoopid for coming to you. Asking you if it happend, when you were suppose to come to me. HAHA, thats not gonna happen anymore. I promisee.

So when you say

"You've lost many friends as this year goes by, but shit its not my lost" you probably ment me. Or somewhere in the lines of me. Well you know what, im happy to say that too. Ive lost one friend this year, ONE and i bet you can guess who that is. Its you. God knew how much you ment to me and when he made you leave my lifee, he gave me four new girls that make me feel like you've never made me feel beforee. So you know what, if its not your lost. Then it sure as hell isnt minee (:

You say

that i never share. You say that i never tell you anything anymore. You say that you try. Yeahh you try alright, when i tell you about what i feel or how i feel you totally ignore it. You know for damn sure that youre the one that im closest to. You could just show a little more caring then this.

AS;DLKFJ

So i guess everythings gonna go down hill from hereeeeeee.

Youre so fucking dumb

AGAIN, youre choosing someone over me. Youre full of bullshit when you say that "No one could replace you in my heart." REALLLY ?! DONT FUCKING LIE TO ME. I know for god damn sure that youre so goddamn brain washed by this stoopid asshole. Are you fucking stupid ?! After all the bullshit, after all of the people, after all this time you still dont fucking understand. You ahead, get your heartbroken, AGAIN -____- Bestfriends my ass.

So Ive thought about it

So much as happend between me and you. & everytime that something new happens, its always you the screw up and me that says sorry. Why do i always say it? Not because its my fault, but i want what happend to just vanish and get back to where we were before. But you know what, I've really been thinking about his. Why do i always have to be the one saying sorry. Why am i always the one saying the words its ohkay, i forgive you or don't worry about it. Why am i always the bigger one, and stepping up and forgiving you? You know what i think im done doing that. Yess, you are my best friend. But im not willing to be the only that tries to make this friendship work, if you really cared about this. You would meet me half way. Its like you dont even care anymoree. A friend recently just reminded me about some of the things that happend in the past. Like i didnt even remember them anymore. Cus i oviously tried to not let it get between anything. When she was talking to me about it, i was trying to keep a smile on my face and just shake it off. But you didnt know how much it hurt to hear it all over again. Too think that you listened to some other person over me. For you to take someone elses side over your own best friends? After all that we've been through, you still listened to her, and her bullshit that she talked about me. Not only did you not defend for me, but you listened to her. You listened to her and started other crap too. Reallly?! Is that what best friends really do to eachother? For all that youve done to me in the past i still forgave youu ? hmmm, i think thats pretty dumb of me. Its been 2 weeks since we havent talked and im still counting the days. Im not calling it quits, but im pretty damn close too. I have no idea why im still holding on. Holding on to someone who hurt me so much in the past, someone who doesnt even give a shit if she loses me or not. Why am i always the one waiting around. Why am i always the one trying ? Why am i always the one being the bigger person? Well you know what, not this time, not anymore. Its gonna be your turn. You can put these pieces back together, cus im done trying. Im done finding the pieces, im done trying to make it work. Its your turn. You can put back the puzzle now. Just because we call eachother besss doesnt really mean anything to me anymoree. Show me that you really want me as a bess. Dont just tell me, show me. After all, actions speak louder than words right?

Tell my why

its been a week and i havent even talked to you.
You dont even know if anythings wrongg.
Tell me why
I dont even wanna see your facee anymore.

I triedd

All my time and effort,

So after 6 yearss

this is how its all gonna go down huhh ?
After all that we've been through, after all the bumps in the road, this is how its gonna end. I never thought that you could be like this. After all the things that we've been through. This is how its all gonna go down. So i guess you've made your choice of where youre gonna be staying. I dont even know how to react to all of this. Its so suddent and out of no where. But hey, ill get over it. If you dont care, then neither will i. Untill we meet again.

Woww -.-

Youre really not worth my time anymore. All the cards that i bought for youu, all the time that i put into writing them. I wish i could take back. You never would put as much into this as i do. I care about this to much. Why do i try so hard ? It doesnt make sense to mee. Whaddever. Youre on your own now, im donee

IVE REALIZEDDDD

Those moments that i wait for, arent really worth it.
I give my all, all the time. But i only get back once in a while isnt enough fore me.
I guess that sounds selfish, but hey. youd do that too.
i dont caree ? I care about you way more then you care about mee. THATS A FACT

Its funny how

you say that no ones there for you.
but when they actually try to talk to you, you push them away.

Sometimesss

youre so retarded, you dont even think before you talk. When im down i need someone to comfort me. You really dont know how to do that. Ive been there for you so many times, its ridiculous.

No school todayy.

Awhh man, i wanted to go to school so badly today.
Haha that makes me sound like a nerd but whatever. I actually enjoy some parts of school. I look forward to pe. I love my girls in thereee (:
I feel so loved by everyone, i got 13 missed calls this morning when i woke up.
EHHH im so bored and sore at homeee.

Stoopid algebra teacher !

Woww, you say you dont give respect cus you dont get it ?
No, not close. You would get respect if you freaking knew how to teach. thanks to you i failed my algebra state test. -_-
You cant teach, you fucking spit everywhere, and you dont make sense. I could never learn anything from you.

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH

These bipolar days to remember.
Eff you. Im done trying, and i mean it.

(:

This little girl just made my night.
These are the things that make me say " Yeahh thats why i give my all, even if i only get parts of it back." Cus when i do get the parts back, they mean alot (: !

Her: I can't ! I'm scared shitless ! LITERALLY !
Me: NO SHIT, you just shitted. NOW GOOO.
*LOLING,
ROFLING
LMFAOING
Literally !

Its funny how

were so close, yet so far away.
We're so close in friendship, but then we NEVER come to eachother for help.

Are we really as close as we say we aree ?

ITS RAININGG !

Oh , i miss the smell of the rain.
Just to sit in the house, under a blanket, watching a movie, with a cup of hot chocolate in my hand. MHMMMM, these are the days to enjoyyy (: !

Ehh, school the next day (:

Interesting dayy (:

I must say. I think its so ironic, that i use to be like "in love" with you. And know youre here hitting on me. Oh well, well see ;D And and and lovely bones is so dumb, dont watch it. Dont ever waste your money on it. Luckily i didnt have too (: Its all good tho, was was entertained in theree (;

Goooood night blogspott ! (:

I can finally

say that im happy and content with where i am.
I dont like anyone (:
I can finally say that i dont like anyone without lieing to myself.

I hope you know

You just made my dayy like crap.
I thought you were gonna be there for me like i was for you. Guess not.

Sometimess

i feel good about myself, and you just make me feel like shit. And you say you have low selfesteem. Look how you make me feel.

You must be a dumbass,

You would choose him over me. Wth, how long have you known him? How long have you known me? He fucked you over, without even caring. He's ashamed of being with you. He doesnt want anyone to know about you guys. & your dumbass still holds on to him. Putting him over me. You know that he flirts with other girls while he was with you right ? You know that he was flirting with your CLOSEfriend while he was with you, right ? No , of course ou didnt. Cus youre too suck on the fact that he "loves" you. Wake up, and get out of it. He played you. He took what could be called the most valuble thing in your life right now. And you still didnt learn your lesson. Why am i the one sitting here caring about you so much, when you really dont give a sheitt about me.

I WISHHH

I had a family where count down the days untill they came. I want to have cousins that i could relate to and tell everything to. I wish i had family that werent fatasses, ones that wanted my mom to make things for them to eat not here, but to also bring home. I wish i had family that didnt talk crap about eachother and let jealously get in the way of loving eachother. I want family that i could spend hours with and not feel uncomfortable. Afterall, family is suppose to be there for eachother theyre at their worst right ? HAHAH ! not my family. My family is the one that judges eachother on where theyre at in life, or their family situations. I want family that can be my support system, ones that help my family out when we need help. I only have that from my moms sid, why cant the other ones look up to her and follow her examplee ?

Youre not the same anymoree,

Next time you need me, i wont be here like i use to.
Next time something happens, dont expect the to comfort you.
I give more then i receive and im done with it.
I realize that i come off as a bitch, but you gotta know. If i care about youu. I'd do anything for youu. But hey, doesnt look like you realize.

Evesdropppers

If youre not in the conversation, theres probably a reason. Dont stand 20 feet away and ask us "huh? what? what happend?" Yess i do agree that i do it at times. Who doesnt, but when its a habbit. You better get rid of it. Just because youre sitting at the same table as us, or youre a family member. You think you have the right to but in. Theres a reason why we didnt include you. Just think about it.

I just wishh

You know how much your lifes changed from last december till now ?
Its been a year and youve been so different, I miss my old brother. I just hope someday you realize whats happend to you. And why i dont treat you the same anymore, why i dont care if i havent seen you in weeks. Its not that i dont care, but i care to much to see you and get hurt again. Shes changed you, for the worst, the WAY worst. I miss you so much, like you have no idea. Its one thing that i wish for everyday, to have my brother back. I just wish one day you realize all this, all thats happend. And i hope that day wont be long from now, cus i really miss you, Sooo much.

Freaking

examss.
Im sick, i cant study. Greatt, watch me fail !

wth

I try talking to you, after 439875 days of not talking. thanks thanks. I feel better -_-

I

seriously dont have a lifee.
HELP ME GET ONEE, somethings gotta change in 2010.

I was on a roleee

Greatt im sick -_-
I havent been sick for the last threefour months.

EHHH, studying for examss .

oh myyy

i just realized that ive been really slacking off this quarter. I mean if i do a project, then i put all my time and effort on it. But if i dont do it then i dont do it at all. Rather then some people just doing all of it but making it look like shit. I needa stop being so ocd about everything and just everything done next quarter.

IM so fed up !

WTF, you guys are so freaking stupid !
You see me in the hallways and give me the dirtiest looks that a person can give. What have i ever done to you? Yeahh i might have screwed up, but is that your business? No. Its not. You have absolutely nothing to do with it, and everytime i see you i get the death stares. And you too. You have no right to give me looks or shit. You got MY sloopy seconds. Ohkay. So i dont know what the hell youre thinking about. Giving me dirty looks and shit. Get over yourselvess.

HMPHHH

Its like i dont even know who you are anymore. What happend to youu ? What happend to us?
Its like if i dont try to keep in touch , then we end up not talking at all. Im tired. Its not right if its just me thats trying. I want me and you to be like the old times. But hey why should i care anymore, you fucked me over so many times.

Sometimesssss

Its not all about who the person is, but its how they make you feel.

Awhh

My stat says that im fucking stressed out, and you go and IM me and ask whats wrong. Even thought we havent talked in FOREVER. (:

FML what a day thoo.
My fucking brothers dont know when to stfu. Like seriously? i dont see you for like 290329482309 days and you come home and expect me to treat you the same? she fucked you up, to the max. to the point where i dont know who the hell you are anymore. i get grossed out everytime i see your face. Dont expect everything to be the same, you made a choice to stay and live over there. Everyone tried talking you into staying here. Did youu?! NOOOO. of course not, fucking big boob bitch got you so brain washed. Fuck you if you think that you can yell at me. Ohkayy, you lost that right when you said that you "loved" that bitch. I would never EVER see you the same anymore. who was fucking there for you when everyone didnt have faith and believe in you? ALL MEE! Wow, i cant even stand looking at your face anymoree. things really have changed in the past year between me and you. you use to be the person who understood me and what i wanted as a teenager, cus afterall you were just onee. I honestly really hope that somehow you end up reading this.

HMPHHH

What happend to the old youu ?!
I miss it , not gonna lie.

-_-

What a freaking day !
School was hellah fun today. Not what i expected at all.
So now im on hold with the freaking Asus company to get my laptop fixed. What a fail ! It shoulda been done already but stupid guy gave me the wrong number so i ended up calling the number in Canada. WTF -_- &&&&&&& Im so stupid ! i freaking ordered the wrong shirt for health science so now i have to wait till they ship it to me, and then ship it back. What a freaking waste of time ! >:[ Im sleepy as hell, but i have so much homework. IM STILL ON HOLD !

-_________-

HAHA

Freaking ashley ! (:
I get off aim, and this is what she leaves me.

gnyelhsa (3:41:51 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] BABY COME BACK
gnyelhsa(3:41:59 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] YOU CAN BLAME IT
gnyelhsa(3:42:00 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ALL
gnyelhsa(3:42:01 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ON
gnyelhsa(3:42:00 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] ME
gnyelhsa(3:42:07 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] jk, its your fault
gnyelhsa(3:42:08 PM):[Offline IM sent 1h and 34m ago] just get off

EWWWW

School tomarrow ! FML

This yearr,

i hope its gonnna be a good one.

YOUREEE

way to cutee ><
Are you for real tho ?

-______-

Wow, its a freaking new year. Give me a break. I dont need you constantly making a comment about every single thing that I'm doing. Im old enough to know right from wrong. STFU and let me do what i wanna do. Im not stupid, nor am i a kid anymore. I know whats right for me. Just let me do what i wanna do.

2010

Hmm first blog of 2010 (:
2010 DO ME GOOOOOD ! (: